I can't look!

Madison Anne sleeps in bed with us. The verdict is still out whether it's the right thing to do or not. I would say the opinions are split down the middle-- some say she can't be spoiled when she's this little-- others say we're setting ourselves up for disaster-- I say to each his own-- everyone is entitled to create their own 'first child'. It seems like one of those things that you can only learn by doing. You live and you learn and you do what feels right. I keep telling Jason that I do not claim to be an expert parent (I wasted all of my time reading about pregnancy instead of what to do what the baby is actually born)--- all I know how to do is what feels right instinctually. It feels right to comfort her at this age and make her feel safe. It doesn't feel right to let her turn purple in the face and cry and cry and cry. Not yet. I figure they give my 6-8weeks maternity leave for a reason--- not to clean the house, go shopping and have a mini-vacation--- but to snuggle and spoil our new little snugglebug every chance I get. Because before I know it I will be back to work full time, wishing I had an hour during the day just to sit and mush with her.

Anyway, sometimes after the 4am feeding I change positions in bed. Madison usually sleeps in between us, but in the early morning I sometimes move to the middle just so I can face the other way. When I came back to bed this morning, Jason woke up a little to welcome us back to bed (with a snuggle hug and kiss for mom)--- just as Jason gave me a 'back to sleep' kiss, Madison smacked her hand up to her face to cover her eyes. It was hilarious! Little does she know that at this point, little kisses is all she has to worry about. We are no where near moving towards little brothers or sisters yet (and to think at one point I wanted 10)!